Januari 31, 2015

back at one lyric by Bryan Mcnight

"Back At One"



It's undeniable... that we should be together...
It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis is need to know, if you don't know just how I feel,
Then let me show you now that I'm for real...
If all things in time, time will reveal...
Yeah...

One... you're like a dream come true...
Two... just wanna be with you...
Three... girl, it's plain to see that you're the only one for me...
And four... repeat steps one through three...
Five... make you fall in love with me...
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one
(yeah)

So incredible the way things work themselves out...
And all emotional, once you know what it's all about, babe...
And undesirable for us to be apart...
Never would've made it very far...
'Cause you know you've got the keys to my heart
'Cause...

One... you're like a dream come true
Two... just wanna be with you
Three... girl, it's plain to see that you're the only one for me
And four... repeat steps one through three
Five... make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one.

Say farewell to the dark of night
I see the coming of the sun...
I feel like a little child
Whose life has just begun.
You came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine.
You threw out the life line
Just in the nick of time.

One... you're like a dream come true
Two... just wanna be with you
Three... girl, it's plain to see that you're the only one for me
And four... repeat steps one through three
Five... make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one.


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Lord i need you lyric by matt


"Lord, I Need You"

Lord, I come, I confess
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You're the One that guides my heart

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Where sin runs deep Your grace is more
Where grace is found is where You are
And where You are, Lord, I am free
Holiness is Christ in me

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Teach my song to rise to You
When temptation comes my way
And when I cannot stand I'll fall on You
Jesus, You're my hope and stay

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

You're my one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

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Januari 30, 2015

AMAziNG Friends

Dear diary i can't say i am unlucky person in the world. Because i know i am lucky have some wonderful friends in the world.

One is my best friend i know ss already 2 years maybe or almost. The student who want to fix his life better with study hard. His country allow him debt money for study. If indonesia also can allow me to do that too and pay it when already have work or job. So lucky me because i really want continue my study or take othet subject. 

I know and realise i am not so smart but i believe knowladge so such important in alive. Knowladge never end. He almost make me smile when i am fall down and feel so blue. I am so lucky right. My ex roommate ever said like this. "You are lucky sist, you have friend to shared your problem and make your life better."

Dear diary, see. Friends are percious then anything. If we can find friend who understand us well and more know us well then ourselve.

Dear diary the dutch friends also wonderful friends. They help me to learn dutch. But this time the dutch time learning little mess. But i will try again to reschedule for that. Because my big brother, already sent me dictionary and i love it as xmas present. The one i am feeling jealous alfon life hehehehe. He is wonderful husband for his wife. If i can find man like him, my life so complate.

Dear diary, i also can say i am so lucky phil find me interested for the first time and he also help me to find my passion. I follow my passion again after long time i sent my dream in rip. Then it wake up and wish me luck to finish soon the backpacker book. Because i want to be good writer. Do you like it?

Dear diary i am so happy and sad in the same time. But having wonderful friends are amazing for me. Special thanks to you phil. You still my angel, guardian angel to keep my dream become real. Love you all.

Ah also my readers. Thank you to keep visit my journal life.


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Little things lyric by one dirrection


Ah i am still feeling sleep and fall asleep when typing and heard music but when wake up. I heard this song. So nice lyric eh song. So i want to shared in hot weather afternoon in Jakarta.

"Little Things"

Your hand fits in mine
Like it's made just for me
But bear this in mind
It was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me

I know you've never loved
The crinkles by your eyes
When you smile
You've never loved
Your stomach or your thighs,
The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine
But I'll love them endlessly

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if I do
It's you
Oh, it's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You can't go to bed without a cup of tea
And maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
And all those conversations are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me

I know you've never loved
The sound of your voice on tape
You never want
To know how much you weigh
You still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you're perfect to me

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you,
It's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all these little things

You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you
And you'll never treat yourself right, darling, but I want you to.
If I let you know I'm here for you
Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you, oh.

And I've just let these little things slip out of my mouth
'Cause it's you,
Oh, it's you,
It's you they add up to
And I'm in love with you
And all these little things

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true
It's you,
It's you they add up to
I'm in love with you
And all your little things

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Resep martabak manis

My favorite snack. Yummy spesial keju  coklat or coklat kacang yummy. Martabak manis tentunya. Temanku juga suka ini rupanya yang dari amrik itu.

Siapa coba yang nggak suka makanan manis enak dan mak yoss kalo di makan selagi hangat.

Ini dia resep yang ingin ku simpan.

Bahan utama kue martabak :

500 gram terigu,-merk segitiga biru
600 ml air bersih
1 sendok makan margarin cair, dicairkan dulu
2 butir telur, dikocok lepas
125 gram gula pasir,yang manis
1/2 sendok teh ragi instant, 
1 sendok teh baking powder, 
1/4 sendok teh pasta vanili,
1/2 sendok teh garam

Bahan Isi martabak :

100 gram keju cheddar,-merek apa saja
 60 ml susu kental manis yg warna putih
100 gram coklat seres


Tata Cara Membuat Adonan Martabak Manis :

 Pertama-tama Campurkanlah tepung terigu, gula pasir, ragi instant,telur, margarin cair, garam & juga pasta vanili secara bersama-sama.

Kemudian Tuangkanlah air bersih sedikit sedikit ke adonan kue martabak tadi sambil diaduk-aduk sampai tercampur rata

Setelah itu Kocok adonan tadi menggunakan mixer dengan kecepatan sedang saja selama 5 menit.

Selanjutnya Masukkanlah Baking powder dan aduk-aduk rata lagi.

Langkah Terakhir diamkan adonan kue selama 40 menit dengan wadah tertutup.

Tata Cara Membuat Martabak Manis :

Pertama-tama Panaskanlah wajan lalu Olesi sedikit saja margarin supaya tak lengket

 Kemudian Tuanglah adonan martabak ke dlm wajan, ratakan.Tunggulah sampai bergelembung di permukaan adonan lalu tutup.

Selanjutnya Tunggu sampai matang dan angkat.

Olesi permukaan kue martabak dgn margarin.

Anda Parut keju dan taburkan diatas martabak dengan coklatnya juga.

 Sekarang Kucurkan susu kental manis di permukaan martabak.

Belahlah menjadi dua bagian dan lipat menjadi bentuk setengah lingkaran saja. sudah Selesai 

Nahh kan Resep Martabak manis sudah kelar dengan selamat, tuk menyantap martabak manis sangat dianjurkan ketika masih panas atau hangat deh, kerena akan terasa enak (tidak enek dimulut) dan rasa keju nya sangat terasa. ohh iya ya untuk isian sebenarnya bisa saja bukan hanya keju, bisa ditambah kacang, pisang, kismis, coklat & lain-lain,


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You Make me Feel Lyric by Westlife

I know this band from Dublin, Irish, Ireland, but the song always nice and special this song in the night when I am writing for the Yogyakarta and already 15 pages, I am so excited and for public transportation already done. Just less for how to speak Indonesia still little bit pages I make.

I wanna shared this lyric in the midnight song, hearing music when typing sometimes helpful but sometimes also can be mess. Depend on your mood. So let's hear this song in the night and I wish you all my readers and special my friends will sleep good. Kiss

"You Make Me Feel"


I've been trying to reach you
'Cause I got something to say
But you're talking about just nothing at all
And you're slipping away
We were crying together
It was a long time ago
Before you walk out the door
And leave me this way
Just hear what I say
You make me feel
You make me real
For the rest of my days
In so many ways

You make me feel
I've been trying to leave you
Why should we go on like this
But my heart can't breathe
When I hear you say
It's better this way

[Chorus]

Ten thousand light years away from you
Keep thinking maybe it's time to let go
But by the end of the day
I still want to say "Do you?"

[Chorus]

Harapan Baru | Hidup Penuh Perjuangan

Setelah lemah semangat dan berlaku bodoh, menolak beberapa kesempatan yang datang. Aku berpikir bahwa itu adalah tindakan yang sia-sia. Mari semangat, dibawah kesedihan diatas akan ada kegembiraan. Melihat rumput tetangga yang hijau tidak boleh cemburu, karena belum tentu hijau kelihatannya indah dan menyenangkan. Jadi hidup adalah perjuangan. Karena itu, aku memilih untuk melanjutkan perjuanganku.

Apalagi beberapa teman dari luar negeri juga sudah tidak sabar untuk menunggu bukuku launching dan aku harap ini adalah titik balik dari mimpiku menjadi seorang penulis, menulis buku backpacker sangat berbeda dengan menulis novel.

 besok, aku berniat untuk bertandang ke Kementerian Pariwisata yang berada di Jakarta. Ya, sapa tahu mereka juga masih menyimpan data dan bisa dibagi denganku untuk membuat bukuku sempurna. Semangat karena aku melihat langit dari sisi yang berbeda. Setelah patah hati bertubi-tubi.

Hidup itu unik kadang apa yang kita rencanakan tidaklah sempurna seperti mimpi. Karena mimpi adalah harapan tetapi saat kita membuka mata dan bernafas, cerita bisa berbeda, apalagi perbedaan karakter dan juga budaya sangat susah untuk disatukan. Tetapi ada satu janji yang pasti, jangan pernah putus asa. Karena di laut masih banyak ikan untuk dipancing.

Semangat!!!! Biarlah angel itu akan tetap menjadi angel bagiku karena dia adalah seseorang yang akan membantuku meraih impianku. Apalagi beberapa teman juga tidak sabar melihat karyaku. Sungguh suatu hal yang membuatku tetap bersemangat. Tuhan, terimakasih meskipun aku lelah terkadang tetapi semangat baru tidak pernah luput Engkau berikan kepadaku.

Cutting Hair to Make Hair Healthy | Miss Long Hair

The first January 2015, I decided to cutting my hair. Honestly, sometimes I miss my long hair. But I should cutting my hair to make my hair keep healthy. Why? Fall down!!!! In this time when my hair to long, it so easy fall down and it so suck.

hair follicles (weakened hair root) because it can't take long hair. Because more long the root should more strong. If not strong, it will be easy to get fall down. Because long hair will make hair more heavy then short hair. Another reason also stressful and age also one part of the reason hair fall down.












Januari 29, 2015

Bandung | Surganya Belanja dan Kuliner Part 2





Bandung | Surganya Belanja dan Kuliner Part 2


Kereta akhirnya berhenti, Bandung, Bandung, akhirnya aku tiba sekitar pukul 01.00 PM, cuacanya super panas. Sinar matahari sangat menyengat. Buta arah dan tak tau peta itulah yang aku rasakan. Padahal aku sudah mencari informasi beberapa info mengenai penginapan murah, tetapi tidak ketemu juga.


Menyeret tas koper berwarna kuning menyala dan menggendong tas ransel yang bebannya super berat. Aku pun menggelengkan kepala ke beberapa tukang becak yang menawarkan jasa untuk mencari tempat penginapan. Aku mencari dan mencari namun tak ketemu juga informasi hotel yang ada di dekat Stasiun Kereta Api bandung.


Nice Dessert

Dear diary, today i meet my friend finally after few time never has good time to meet. We meet one of malls in jakarta. Because jakarta has many malls. 

My friend always come a few time in indonesia coz of the job. Lucky friend has my fsntacy job, work in international organization and make my friend work around the world. Dream job right. But my friend said for 2 years so amazing but after years will be bored and make spend more time in flight.

Dear diary finally i eat nice ice cream with many flavor indeed plus hearing the experience about the job. For me that is so fantactic. I wish we will meet again one day, because i want to know many amazing places my friend already visit around the world.

My friend said my english good but i am not sure, just need more practice. Any friends who want practice english with me?



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Pass the Opportunity

Dear diary, today i should go to one part to get opportunity but i pass this opportunity because my feeling so blue and i dont have desire. Altough that, i still keep writing for Yogyakarta. I wish tomorrow will be finish soon.

Dear diary, yesterday i was doing silly, embress myself. Because i feel so unbelievel, why it happened to me. Ya, life must go on. So go on. Today is just last day i am trying to get explain but it just spam words. So bye bye you are not angel but the devil in my nitemare 

Dear diary tomorrow i want to go to some place just to get many informations. Wish me luck. Dont be sad if i am not writing coz i dont have passion this time.



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When hunting food


Sometimes i dont like cook so buy food in evening time. Eat just one time on diet. Sometimes i also break rule, eat ice cream and snack. So enjoy life.

Suddenly when i see twin kids, 
I want take picture with them. So i ask their parent and he allow me to take pic. So sweet, this baby girls and cubby and really want to hug them.


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Resep Bubur Candil


Senangnya bisa masak bubur favorite masih kecil hingga sekarang. Enak, manis dan gurih. Namana bubur candil atau sebagian orang menyebutnya bubur biji salak. Entah mana yang benar.


Bahan :
200 gram tepung ketan untuk bulatan
1 sdt air kapur sirih
175 ml air
150 gram tepung ketan untuk bubur


Kuah :
750 ml air
200 gram gula merah
3 lbr daun pandan


Vla
Santan
Garam
Tepung maisena untuk mengentalkan

Or
SAUS SANTAN : 750 ml santan, ½ sdt garam, 1 lembar daun pandan, sobek-sobek dan buat simpul.
Masak bahan saus santan di atas api kecil sambil diaduk-aduk hingga mendidih dan kental.


CARA MEMBUAT BUBUR CANDIL :

Campur air kapur sirih dengan tepung ketan, tuang air sedikit demi sedikit sambil diuleni hingga adonan bisa dibentuk. Bentuk bulat-bulat, taburkan sedikit tepung agar tidak lengket dan saling menempel, sisihkan.


Masak air, gula merah dan daun pandan hingga mendidih, saring lalu didihkan kembali. Masukkan bulatan adonan satu per satu supaya tidak menempel hingga terapung. 

Kecilkan api lalu masukkan bagian tepung. Terus aduk hingga mengental dan matang. Angkat dan sajikan dengan diraman saus santan.




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Januari 27, 2015

No more eat in the street

Dear diary today i am going to park again. After jogging, we buy siomay in the park. Uh the siomay we think delicious and the price expensive for this food coz normally the price around 5.000-6.000 IDR. But this vendor sell it 10.000 IDR.

After eating this i got stomach pain but two my friends also feel same. So here i am buy white milk. I don't like it but that is making my stomach better


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Resep kue cenil


Sore-sore paling enak deh ngemil. Neh salah satu kue tradisional kesukaanku semasa kecil. Apalagi jika ditambah dengan karamel gula merah sedapnya.


Bahan Membuat Kue Cenil :

Tepung kanji 250 gr
Garam halus 1/2 sdt
Air mendidih 125 ml

Bahan Taburan Kue Cenil:
Kelapa 1/2 butir dikupas dan diparut panjang, lalu di kukus
Pewarna makanan (merah dan hijau) secukupnya
Gula pasir 100 gr / gula merah yang dibuat karamel
Daun pandan 1 lbr

Cara Membuat Kue Cenil :

Pertama, membuat taburan : kukus kelapa parut beserta daun pandan, dan garam selama kurang lebih 15 menit. Setelah itu angkat dan sisihkan.

Lalu ambil 1 sendok makan tepung kanji, kemudian cairkan dengan 2 sendok makan air dingin. Setelah itu tuangkan ke dalam 125 ml air yang mendidih, lalu aduk hingga terlihat kental.

Kemudian masukkan sisa tepung kanji perlahan sedikit demi sedikit, kemudian aduk rata, lalu uleni sampai adonan dapat dibentuk, setelah itu bagi adonan menjadi 3 bagian.
Selanjutnya, beri masing-masing adonan pewarna kue berwarna merah dan hijau, dan biarkan adonan yang satunya tanpa pewarna, kemudian bentuk tiap adonan menjadi berbentuk bulat panjang atau sebesar jari kelingking, setelah itu sisihkan.

Terakhir, didihkan air, kemudian rebus adonan yang sudah dibentuk tadi hingga terlihat mengapung dan matang. Setelah itu angkat, gulingkan dalam kelapa parut, taburi dengan gula pasir, lalu kue cenil buatan anda pun siap untuk disajikan.

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You and I Lyric by One Direction

Ah this time I was not sleep well because I got same weird phone from unknown number, I don't know why they keep disturbing me so badly.


"You & I"

[Niall:]
I figured it out,
I figured it out from black and white
Seconds and hours,
Maybe they had to take some time

[Liam:]
I know how it goes,
I know how it goes from wrong and right
Silence and sound
Did they ever hold each other tight
Like us?
Did they ever fight
Like us?

[Harry:]
You and I
We don't wanna be like them
We can make it 'til the end
Nothing can come between
You and I
Not even the gods above
Can separate the two of us
No, nothing can come between
You and I

Oh, you and I

[Zayn:]
I figured it out,
Saw the mistakes of up and down
Meet in the middle,
There's always room for common ground

[Louis:]
I see what it's like,
I see what it's like for day and night
Never together
'Cause they see things in a different light
Like us
But they never tried
Like us

[Harry:]
You and I
We don't wanna be like them
We can make it 'til the end
Nothing can come between
You and I
Not even the gods above
Can separate the two of us

[Zayn:]
'Cause you and I...

[All:]
We don't wanna be like them,
We can make it 'til the end,
Nothing can come between
You and I
Not even the gods above
Can separate the two of us
No, nothing can come between
You and I

[Zayn:]
You and I

[Harry:]
Oh, you and I
Oh, you and I

[Zayn:]
We can make it if we try,
You and I

[Harry:]
Oh, you and I

Jakarta-Bandung | Perjalanan yang Melelahkan Part 1

Perjalanan di awal December dengan menggunakan kereta api kelas eksekutif sungguh menyenangkan. Bangku yang nyaman dan jarak kursi yang leluasa, bisa merengangkan kaki bila terasa lelah untuk duduk merapat. Ditambah AC yang super dingin dan mendapatkan posisi duduk dekat jendela, sungguh awal perjalanan yang menyenangkan bukan?

Kereta yang membawaku ke Bandung adalah kali kedua aku menaikin kereta. Sebelumnya, aku pernah naik kereta antara jarak Solo-Jakarta. Karena kehabisan tiket pesawat dengan bos. Lantaran pada waktu itu, cuaca gunung yang menyeburkan debu membuat beberapa penerbangan harus dibatalkan. Sehingga, satu-satunya akses dengan menggunakan kereta. Jadi, inilah perjalanan pertamaku di akhir tahun 2014. Sebuah keajaiban aku bisa menikmatin beberapa tempat yang menarik.

Find Shell, Throw without See It



Find Shell, Throw without See It


Sometimes we don’t realize about what is mean true love. That is happened to Anne, but this time Anne is not the person who cut the communication. She just victim, because she believe someone who love her as the way she likes this one. Anne already tired with her life, never lucky to find love. Then suddenly she got an email for stranger. She just read it without any desire to reply. Because the email always keep coming, she just reply simple words but this email sound interested to keep reply and make communication.


She decided to give her number, chatting is one part to know each other. Although many million meters far from each other but Anne feels comfortable to talk with this guy. She shared about the dreams and desire on the futures. She thinks this guy is guardian angel who one day will make her free.


Regularly communication always good in that time, till one day, something happened. Suddenly Anne’s world is broken. She can’t do anything to fix it. Because she doesn’t know anything, she is stupid to fall in the same hole, but the pain is more pain then long time ago, tears become her loyal friend. Until this time, she can’t understand time so fast to broken her dream. Wonderful dream became nightmare in the night. Tears which never stop in the night make her world become dark suddenly.

Januari 26, 2015

Are You Happy | I am Happy

Dear diary, can I tell you little secret? Today I make bubur sumsum (porridge) which made by rice flour. But I don't realise the coconut cream already not smell good. Because I am still flue, so I can't smile it. So after cooked, I throw it all in trash. Then I make the new porridge but this time the porridge made by glutinous rice flour and I eaten it all afternoon and evening. I am not in my mood to eat something.

I should diet and I want it work and make my belly small and become "sexy" lady hahahaha. I should think about what I want to do. Dear diary, I am still waiting my sponsor response about an article and an idea about backpacker book, but my sponsor is not reply mine. I also sent the whatsapp but no response either. What happened? I want to finish it soon; I know it still need time, but I want. Please my sponsor when you read this, response my email.

Many concept in my mind but if it is not accept on the book, it will be nothing. Should I make it and waiting my sponsor response. Maybe my sponsor still busy with the work and forget about this project. I just wish it will be finish and get publisher and I will be thankful to Lord, because Lord who make me know my sponsor. That is blessing for my dream.

Dear diary, another side I feel sad but that is O.K if are you happy and  I am happy. I am not perfect and I am still find my way. Maybe it need longer then I imagine but that is all right, no matter I am trying, I always fail in the same hole. But for the future dream about become writer. This is should be my first dream. Because I am afraid to get other dream.

Dear diary, although I am broken heart but I am so happy when I got amazing news. My friend, Kartini finally pregnant and twin. The program baby is success to her faith. I am so happy for you my friend. You are the lucky one after three years try to get  a baby. Then you will get two. So amazing.

Dear diary, if you believe miracle then I will said I believe miracle and I feel it as long as my journey; although sometimes I fall down and depression but I always believe in miracle.

Terhempas dalam Duka

Hati ini sedih, terluka tetapi tidak berdaya. Rasanya ada relung yang hilang. Dikala harapan baru saja terpupuk dengan baik. Tetapi berantakan seketika. Rasanya asa ini tak kuat lagi tertahan. Ingin segera dikeluarkan dengan sekuat tenaga, tetapi energi sudah terkuras habis dengan kepedihan yang mematahkan tulang. Tak tersisa sedikit pun yang ada hanyalah air mata yang tak berhenti.

Sakit, rasanya sakit dan seperti terbakar habis. Tersisa hanyalah puing-puing yang rapuh. Jika tersentuh sedikit saja dengan mudah akan hancur berantakan. Itulah yang kurasakan saat ini. Cobaan tiada henti-hentinya datang padaku. Tetapi aku tetap berupaya untuk tersenyum dan mengatakan bahwa semuanya baik-baik saja. Karena hanya itulah matra yang bisa menguatkan hatiku yang hancur berkeping-keping. Satu per satu mimpiku hancur berantakan. Apakah harapanku padanya terlalu tinggi? Apakah mengharapkan seseorang yang bersimpati adalah salah? Apakah yang salah dari mencoba membuka hati lagi, setelah patah dan hancur berkeping-keping.

Biarlah air mata ini mengalir yang menandakan bahwa aku sudah tak kuasa lagi menjadi seorang yang tegar. Karena ketegaran terkadang butuh kelembutan. Kehangatan yang mengatakan bahwa semuanya baik-baik saja. Walaupun seratus persen itu tidak lah benar adanya.

Rasa ini sudah hampir mati, selayu pohon yang akan rubuh dengan mudahnya. Rubuh karena akar yang tak bertahan menompang beban tingginya pohon itu sendiri. Biarlah semuanya berlalu, seperti angin yang bertiup perlahan dan meninggalkan jejak berantakan. Biarlah semuanya ini hanya bagian dari ilusi yang kemudian akan dilupakan seperti tak terjadi apa-apa.

Meninggalkan jejak yang mencap bagaikan pisau yang mengoreskan luka di hati. Sakit berdarah tak tertahankan. Tetapi luka itu akan sembuh seiring waktu dengan meninggalkan bekas yang tak akan bisa sesempurna dulu. Kehidupan tak lah lagi sama, namun kehidupan akan terus berjalan siap dan tak siapnya seseorang.

Duka yang mendalam membunuh perlahan, namun harapan membuatnya berdiri dengan tergopong-gopong dan tak kuasa menahan diri dan terjatuh kembali. Mengharapkan bisa mengepakan sayap, namun sayap telah terluka dan terkoyak. Hanya sisa-sisa bias yang ada. Meratap nasib yang tak pernah berubah, berkali-kali jatuh ke dalam lubang yang sama. Patah, terluka, perih. Bagaikan kata yang selalu ada dalam kehidupan ini.

Sedih itu bagaikan energi positif terserap habis dan tak tersisa. Kuatkan hati tetapi hati sudah tercambuk beribu kali menjadi biru tak terhingga. Kembali memerah membutuhkan keajaiban. Adakah keajaiban untuk mengobati hati yang terluka? Adakah obat tanpa meninggalkan jejak kepedihan dan kesakitan yang mendalam. Menusuk bagaikan ribuan jarum yang tak berhenti. Coklat yang biasanya terasa manis kini berganti menjadi pahit. Sepahit rasa yang ada.

Resep bubur sum sum


Kalau hujan-hujan gini paling enak ngemil apa ya? Beli makanan di luar sekarang nggak cukup dengan duit 20.000 untuk keluarga. Mending kita buat bubur sum sum aja yuk. 

Jadinya banyak dan puas lagi makannya plus sehat untuk keluarga tercinta.

Bahan yang anda siapkan
100 gram tepung beras
1/2 sendok teh garam
3 lembar daun pandan, buat jadi simpul
650ml santan kental, atau santan dari satu butir kelapa tua

Bahan kuah
2 lbr daun pandan, bersihkan dan buat simpul
100 ml air bersih
200 gram gula merah, sisir halus

Cara membuat bubur sum sum:

Bagilah santan jadi dua bagian dan di wadah yang berbeda, panaskan santan pada wadah pertama bersama dengan simpulan daun pandan menggunakan api kecil sambil terus diaduk.
Santan pada wadah kedua dicampur dengan tepung beras dan garam, aduk-aduk hingga semua bahan tercampur rata.
Saat santan yang di wadah pertama dipanaskan maka campurkan santan di wadah kedua kedalam santan yang pertama, aduk-aduk terus hingga mengental.
Jika sudah mengental itu artinya sudah matang, angkat dan dinginkan

Lalu, kita buat fla-nya

membuat kuahnya dengan cara mencampur air dengan gula, daun pandan lalu aduk-aduk. Rebuslah campuran tersebut menggunakan api sedang hingga mengental, angkat dan sisihkan.

Note: jika ingin berwarna hijau biar tidak bosan berwarna putih. Pada saat membuat adonan bubur tambahkan pewarna hijau. Mau variant lain juga bisa, misalnya tambahkan jagung rebus manis yang sudah disisir.
Siap deh untuk dihidangkan.. mmm yummy dan enak


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Looking a Room | Like Search Boy Friend

Almost a week, my friend and I are looking a room for rent. We want to move from old kos (boarding house) so we are keeping search kos. But none we find it. Then i said to my friend, "looking a room same like we are looking boy friend" why i said like that? Because any reason for that.

A room which i want to rent should comfortanble and nice with good budged i can pay regulary every month. Same like a lover, you should feel comfortable with your lover. If you are not feel it, you can't longer with her/him.

Find kos also should catagory for that, the room should fix to put all your stuffs. Stuff you don't like and stuff you like. All that should be part the collection. Its also same like you find your lover should love you as the way you are. The good and bad parts of you. If he/she doesn't like all that. It difficult to connecting the relationship.

That is just some parts. I think still many parts to make it connecting. My new room should little bit big because i want to shared it with my female friend so i can shared the price too. Plus i feel safety and also has kitchen for cook food. That will make me save little budged for food and also more healthy until i find job.

The room should has pentilasi for fresh air. It make room health because the circle air will be change and the sun bright also can come. That is good part but we find small room without window. Plus the envilopment so bad, mix male n female i don't like. Because i feel not comfortable. I can't freedom wear short pant to go to toilet.

Ah really find nice kos is very difficult, simillar find lover. Many condition and term for that. What is my catagory for my boy friend? 

I don't have many condition. But long time ago. My catagory man is

1. Believe God;
2. Responsible and love his family; why? If he can't love his parents, how he will love my parents and me.
3. No smoker man; i don't like smoker man because i dont like smoke.
4. He can cook. Long time ago i can't cook but this time i can. But would be nice if he can cooks too so we can be good team if one of us busy, the other will be help each other.
5. Romantic man. Because i am not romantic that is why i need romantic man.
6. Love me as the way i am then i will do same.



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Keep in Touch

Having friends are amazing but sometimes very difficult to understand and also make it easy to communication. Different zona time also make it difficult to do, including the culture.

This day i am trying to keep in touch and none respons. Maybe this friend so hate me. Maybe this friend don't like me anymore but i know the reason little bit. Because i am not his type to immature for him. But i don't know how to act like a woman behave in my ages
 
Because i think i do normal act in my behave age. I am trying to understand but i do max but it still not enough. Sometimes i am tired to make communication because it just make me more get far space to my friend. What should i do? 

How to make communication and keep in touch with someone you like but that is ok if this someone don't like you or reply your feeling. I just want to be happy and also someone i like. Of course i also want to make my all friends be happy. 

If you read this i will not distrub you. Maybe you already find someone you love then me. Ah i sound like poor woman who ask for someone to love me and be happy. But this is real life. Should i let you go or should i keep in touch. But it more pain if it just read without reply. Ah i should do anything about this behave because i think this one behave side my immature woman that my friend dont like it.

Complicated life. Complicated feeling. Stop let's move on. Because he doesn't like it. He doesn't me to be his special. So, i will stop to be like that. Keep spirit, broken heart again after long time i keep my feel and dream and why should i like him? The reason because i think i find someone who has same desire and want shared dream and i am completedly wrong.

Keep in touch just can work if two ways  communication and not just one. If your friend ignore you that is mean stop and don't disturb me. Go a way and deleted my number or anything about me because it is better then you are annoying me. Then i will make your wish become true. Just say one time.





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Januari 25, 2015

Walking in The Dark


I am walking alone in the dark;
Dark like what I feel inside
I can't see anything in the dark;
But I can feel the sadness inside

I know I am nothing special for you
I don't have anything to offer you
I also realize I don't know you too
I just hope my journey will end

But I am completely wrong about it
My journey is still long in the dark
I don't find the direction to get out here
I think you are my angel who safe me free

I said to myself that is O.K if nothing happened
The journey just start it slow and slowly
That is O.K to become pain inside my heart
It is mean I have feeling and it is not frozen

My feeling is pure and honestly
But I can't say I am perfect the one
Because I know I am not perfect to anybody
I just a woman who has many dreams and hope

Find someone who will love me as the way I am
Someone who understand me as I understand him
Someone who fill my days with hope and survive
But nothing happened for the future is O.K

My present life still long as my journey
Walking in the dark is not making me afraid
Because I believe in the end way that will be good
Someone will waiting me there with smile

Jakarta

Hearing Music | Close Your Eyes

Close your eyes for a while when you can't handle the problems your life. Listen the music which make you calm. Forget the bad things in alive. Making strong is not so easy but you can do it. Pretended nothing happened which make your day worse. Because life so beautiful just to make tears go away from the eyes.

Many people try to survive and some get the winner and some of them become the looser. Which one do you want? Life is pain but life also wonderful. Sometimes we never know what life will brings to us. Just close your eyes and say everything will be O.K. If one of your dream get mess. Then think about other dreams. Still has many dreams.

Ah I remember when  I said to a friend, make your dreams high in the sky when you are fall still has cloud will make you safe. Don't be afraid to make dream and rise it to be real. One my dream get mess. I think I do find one who love and know me little well but I am getting wrong. I am so damn sad but I am trying to be strong although that is so hurt inside. But I am always strong that is what I say to my self and now I will move on from the pain feeling.

Lyric song from soundtrack movie Master Sun - No Matter What

The closer I go, the farther you get
My difficult love
Without even caring about my heart
You just brightly smile at me

I try to fix my thoughts multiple times a day
But love keeps growing no matter what
It keeps growing
It doesn’t work even if I scold myself
It keeps doing the opposite like a child

Please stop
I try to shut up my heart but I only think of you
From the start to finish, it’s you

Though I desperately want, though I hope

My love can’t come true
It keeps growing
It doesn’t work even if I scold myself
It keeps doing the opposite like a child
Please stop

I try to shut up my heart but I only think of you
In the end, I can’t go on if it’s not you
Please come a little closer to me
Open your heart just once

If only I can hold you in my embrace
If only I can feel you just once
With just that, I would be able to live
But in front of me, you don’t know anything
As you smile

From the start to finish, you don’t know me
  -----

Yes from the start you don't know me well, I think you already know me and like me as i like you. I am trying to open my self but before I can open it, it should broken and that is really hurt me and embrace my self. But that is ok no matter what my feeling, it is just my feeling. I do try as well as to know you as well. But I don't know single words about you. Maybe I am still immature in your eyes, but that is ok. Because I am not perfect and my life is not fairy tale who has fairy will help me.

My life is wonderful with my opportunity surrounded me, thanks for everything you done with me and I wish the book will be good and it will make me feel so amazing to know about life from other mirror. When I go to one attraction in Jakarta, there is one game has many style in mirror.

Mirror mirror in the wall, when you see other style you will look yourself has big body, the other side you find your body so small and big head. So, just find perfect normal to see the perfect your own body without any trick on it. Someone who look at me as the way I am.

Januari 23, 2015

Don't Worry | I am O.K


Happy sabbath day. Ah i feel so free after i say what i want to know. I feel better, dont worry i am strong woman. Like my own song.

I'm strong, i am strong
Sad never come, blue always gone
Smiling is smile, make my day be happy



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Let's Dancing on My World

Life is difficult for Princess Anne, she should move from palace to the village, because her father death and some family don't want she stay in palace. Because the reason, she is the killer and some people around her always death. So, they are afraid if it will be happened again. Like she did with his father. She is very sad but she is trying to follow the destiny; But she never live alone and all her stuff always mads help her.

She doesn't know what should do. She live in small house in uphill. She can see the sun up and down so easy everyday. Wonderful view nature she got but she still miss something. She is afraid to interaction with people because if people in around her will get disaster and death. That is why she can't do activity then just keep a way from the people.

Lonely in uphill house that is her feeling, then she decided she won't live again in this world. She try to kill herself with fall herself in rotten. But that is mind gone when she look the wonderful view and the red sun which want to hiding itself and the red light make around it amazing. Suddenly, she get fall down in rotten but she still survive. She just sleep for long way, she got dreams, in her own world, she found the happiness, many animal in around her and can speak and dance. This is wonderful time for her to keep her eyes long time. But voice make her should wake up, a voice of birds near her.

She realize she still in rotten and should wake up to find away to uphill. As long as her walking alone in judge, she meet a strange old man. The old man ask her to help him; Does a princess will help this old man?

Soundtrack Master Sun Series Movie

I love this song this Time and also the movie

Korean Lyric :
deudgo itnayo nae maeumeul
bogo itnayo nae nunmureul
i sesange hana oroji dan hana
nan neo yeoyaman haneunde

wae jakku naegeseo domangchinayo
wae jakku naegeseo meoreo jinayo
naegyeote isseojwoyo
nae soneul jabajwoyo
nal sarang handamyeon

michige mandeureo niga
nal ulge mandeureo niga
gakkai sone jabhil deutae jabeumyeon
meoreojineun baram cheoreom

honjaseo haneunge sarang
namneun geon nunmurin sarang
geureon geoji gateun geureon
babo gateun sarang

hanbeonman geudaereul anado doenayo
majimag insareul na haedo doenayo

sarang haetdeon chueogeul haengbog
haetdeon gieogeul itji marayo

michige mandeureo niga
nal ulge mandeureo niga
gakkai sone jabhil deutae jabeumyeon
meoreojineun baram cheoreom

honjaseo haneunge sarang
namneun geon nunmurin sarang
geureon geoji gateun geureon
babo gateun sarang

eonjenga uri dashi mannaneun geunal
geuttae uri he eoji jimayo

gaseumi haneun mal saranghae
nunmuri haneun mal mianhae
amuri juwo damgo dama bwado ssodajyeo
beorineun mal cheoreom

honjaseo haneunge sarang
namneun geon nunmurin sarang
geureon geoji gateun geureon
babo gateun sarang

Translation :
Are you listening to my heart?
Are you looking at my tears?
Only one in the world, just one
I need it to be you

Why do you keep running
away from me?
Why do you keep getting far from me?
Stay by my side, hold my hand
If you love me

You drive me crazy
You make me cry
You’re close as if I can catch you./ But
when I do, you get far away like the wind

Love is what I do alone
Love only leaves tears
A crappy,
foolish love

Can I hug you just once?
Can I say my last goodbye?

Don’t forget the loving memories,
the happy memories

You drive me crazy
You make me cry
You’re close as if I can catch you./ But
when I do, you get far away like the wind

Love is what I do alone
Love only leaves tears
A crappy,
foolish love

Some day, when we meet again
Let’s not say goodbye

Words that my heart say, I love you
Words that my tears say, I’m sorry
No matter how much I pick them up and
put them in./ Words spill out

Love is what I do alone
Love only leaves tears
A crappy,
foolish love

Hangul :
듣고 있나요 내 마음을
보고 있나요 내 눈물을
이세상에 하나 오로지 단 하나
난 너여야만 하는데

왜 자꾸 내게서 도망치나요
왜 자꾸 내게서 멀어지나요
내곁에 있어줘요
내 손을 잡아줘요
날 사랑한다면

미치게 만들어 니가
날 울게 만들어 니가
가까이 손에 잡힐듯해 잡으면
멀어지는 바람처럼

혼자서 하는게 사랑
남는건 눈물인 사랑
그런 거지같은 그런
바보같은 사랑

한번만 그대를 안아도 되나요
마지막 인사를 나 해도 되나요

사랑했던 추억을 행복
했던 기억을 잊지 말아요

미치게 만들어 니가
날 울게 만들어 니가
가까이 손에 잡힐듯해 잡으면
멀어지는 바람처럼

혼자서 하는게 사랑
남는 건 눈물인 사랑
그런 거지같은 그런
바보같은 사랑

언젠가 우리 다시 만나는 그날
그때 우리 헤어지지마요

가슴이 하는 말 사랑해
눈물이 하는 말 미안해
아무리 주워담고 담아봐도 쏟아져
버리는 말처럼

혼자서 하는게 사랑
남는건 눈물인 사랑
그런 거지같은 그런
바보같은 사랑
Korean Lyric :
deudgo itnayo nae maeumeul
bogo itnayo nae nunmureul
i sesange hana oroji dan hana
nan neo yeoyaman haneunde

wae jakku naegeseo domangchinayo
wae jakku naegeseo meoreo jinayo
naegyeote isseojwoyo
nae soneul jabajwoyo
nal sarang handamyeon

michige mandeureo niga
nal ulge mandeureo niga
gakkai sone jabhil deutae jabeumyeon
meoreojineun baram cheoreom

honjaseo haneunge sarang
namneun geon nunmurin sarang
geureon geoji gateun geureon
babo gateun sarang

hanbeonman geudaereul anado doenayo
majimag insareul na haedo doenayo

sarang haetdeon chueogeul haengbog
haetdeon gieogeul itji marayo

michige mandeureo niga
nal ulge mandeureo niga
gakkai sone jabhil deutae jabeumyeon
meoreojineun baram cheoreom

honjaseo haneunge sarang
namneun geon nunmurin sarang
geureon geoji gateun geureon
babo gateun sarang

eonjenga uri dashi mannaneun geunal
geuttae uri he eoji jimayo

gaseumi haneun mal saranghae
nunmuri haneun mal mianhae
amuri juwo damgo dama bwado ssodajyeo
beorineun mal cheoreom

honjaseo haneunge sarang
namneun geon nunmurin sarang
geureon geoji gateun geureon
babo gateun sarang

Translation :
Are you listening to my heart?
Are you looking at my tears?
Only one in the world, just one
I need it to be you

Why do you keep running
away from me?
Why do you keep getting far from me?
Stay by my side, hold my hand
If you love me

You drive me crazy
You make me cry
You’re close as if I can catch you./ But
when I do, you get far away like the wind

Love is what I do alone
Love only leaves tears
A crappy,
foolish love

Can I hug you just once?
Can I say my last goodbye?

Don’t forget the loving memories,
the happy memories

You drive me crazy
You make me cry
You’re close as if I can catch you./ But
when I do, you get far away like the wind

Love is what I do alone
Love only leaves tears
A crappy,
foolish love

Some day, when we meet again
Let’s not say goodbye

Words that my heart say, I love you
Words that my tears say, I’m sorry
No matter how much I pick them up and
put them in./ Words spill out

Love is what I do alone
Love only leaves tears
A crappy,
foolish love

Hangul :
듣고 있나요 내 마음을
보고 있나요 내 눈물을
이세상에 하나 오로지 단 하나
난 너여야만 하는데

왜 자꾸 내게서 도망치나요
왜 자꾸 내게서 멀어지나요
내곁에 있어줘요
내 손을 잡아줘요
날 사랑한다면

미치게 만들어 니가
날 울게 만들어 니가
가까이 손에 잡힐듯해 잡으면
멀어지는 바람처럼

혼자서 하는게 사랑
남는건 눈물인 사랑
그런 거지같은 그런
바보같은 사랑

한번만 그대를 안아도 되나요
마지막 인사를 나 해도 되나요

사랑했던 추억을 행복
했던 기억을 잊지 말아요

미치게 만들어 니가
날 울게 만들어 니가
가까이 손에 잡힐듯해 잡으면
멀어지는 바람처럼

혼자서 하는게 사랑
남는 건 눈물인 사랑
그런 거지같은 그런
바보같은 사랑

언젠가 우리 다시 만나는 그날
그때 우리 헤어지지마요

가슴이 하는 말 사랑해
눈물이 하는 말 미안해
아무리 주워담고 담아봐도 쏟아져
버리는 말처럼

혼자서 하는게 사랑
남는건 눈물인 사랑
그런 거지같은 그런
바보같은 사랑

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